
Bile
Wyatt Plafker
I hate the feeling of vomiting.
The way it burns when it comes up.
The way the bile hangs in the back of my throat.
The guilt it makes me feel when it manages to crawl out,
The way it looks.
The memories that come out with it:
The way he looked at me.
The way he put his mouth on me.
The way he continues to lie about me.
I hate puke,
And I hate him too.

Amy Marin is a psychologist, writer, and photographer whose work is fueled by a keen interest in human behavior. Her latest photography project “Specimen” is a look into the classification system used by mental health professionals to define and diagnose psychological disorders. There are hundreds of labels for the dysfunctional workings of our minds designed to capture the essence of our dysregulated relationships, our failures to cope, our lost touch with reality, and our profound and troubling emotional states. Although this clinical system benefits diagnosis and research, the cost is that the human is diminished to a set of qualifying features and traits. The photographic images in this series explore the duality of the private, often painful individual human experience of mental illness with the accompanying burden of becoming a specimen of fascination to outside observers.
Wyatt Plafker is a queer poet/essayist. Its identity is an incredibly important part of their creative identity and what they form much of their writing around.